1880-1882] Life at a Lower Pitch 257 



LEITII HILL PLACE, June 12 [1882]. 



It feels very dismal doing anything for the first time so 

 differently. F. always used to enjoy a railway journey when 

 once started, and always was so bright and pleasant at 

 Leith Hill Place. I shall be glad to get home. I seem to 

 be making more contrasts in my own mind here than there. 

 ... I feel sure you never forget, my dearest. Sometimes I 

 feel it selfish that my regrets should be so much confined to 

 what I have lost myself. To feel there was one that I 

 could almost always make more happy. . . . But lif e is not 

 flat to me, only all at a lower pitch ; and I do feel it an advan- 

 tage not to be grudging the years as they pass and lamenting 

 my age. 



