C\A . . . To tell you the truth I am rather worried. If I thought 

 I would get a laboratory position by waiting, I would do so. 

 I am damnably independent and although this policy is a good 

 one anywhere, it is somewhat overshadowed by pauperism. I 

 spent all my money travelling and am not making anything 

 to speak of. Still, I think I can borrow a couple of hundred 

 of the filthy on my life insurance policy. . . . Oakland ap- 

 peals to me and if you could fix up some sort of arrangement 

 at the medical school, so much the better. You say the place 

 has no money. Does that mean that there is no exchange of 

 lucre whatsoever? Yes or no might express the difference 

 between life and death. . . . The fact is I am tired, and it 

 goes against the grain to wait for someone else to do something 

 for me, so I am going to strike out for myself just as soon as I 

 can get ready for a state board exam. . . . What must be, 

 must be; and I am good on the still hunt. ... If it looks as 

 though I could get a start (at the medical school) I'll come. 



October 28, 1905, he said: 



. . . Pardon me for writing a letter which seemed "blue." I 

 shall immediately discard my blue writing-pad and buy a red 

 one. ... I have been showing Dr Musgrave about for the 

 past three days and only regret that I could not give him a bet- 

 ter time. He left last night for San Francisco on his way back 

 to Manila. ... I think I will wait here and talk things over 

 with you in December. I could not raise more than a couple 

 of hundred just now and that seems too little to risk going west 

 with. . . . Paciencia! — something will turn up. 



His father wrote him that he was "sorry" because he was 

 "seriously considering going west" and advised: "Secure a 

 good practice and surround yourself with the means of pur- 

 suing investigation independently. My prayer in it all is that 

 you may be divinely guided into that sphere where you can 

 best serve God & humanity." Then to comfort his son's 

 soul, he added: "Dr Semple called after you left Kasauli and 

 said many things complimentary, among them he wished you 

 in his research establishment." 



Late in November, I was on my way to Europe and had 

 agreed to meet him in Chicago. The place settled upon was 

 a saloon which had been a favorite of student days. I found 



