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ccivc, military men, who were not there, will 

 then have an opportunity of judging whether the 

 Generals I have named, did or did not defervc 

 my praife. 



When the King of Prullia retired, all my 

 hopes vaniflied into air; ruined in my fortunes, 

 without home, without expedlation of employ 

 whichever way I turned my eyes, the profpecl 

 was equally dreary ; and, as if the hand of fate 

 was lifted to my deltrudlion, I jufl then re- 

 ceived a defperate wound, under the pain of 

 which I long languiihed. 



Worn out with fatigue, fainting with the 

 lofs of blood, and llill more tortured with the 

 anguifh arifing from the contemplation of the 

 immenfity of my undeferved misfortunes, a re-- 

 treat was neceffary; but, alas ! where was I to 

 find it ? or who would open a hofpitablc door 

 to a poor wounded foldier, though I hope, at 

 Icaft, in that capacity not degraded? Thefc 

 melancholy reflexions had reduced me to a 

 fliadow, and I looked forward to death as the 

 moft delirable of events. Thus circumflanced 

 1 was induced to take up my relidence in a 

 little town of the interior, till my health fliould 

 again enable me to draw my fword. 



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