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" When a person is actuated by the love of God as whT\ 

 as man, when he applies the Saviour's gracious words ' do 

 this in remembrance of me/ not solely to the partaking of 

 the sacrament of the Supper, but to the performance of 

 whatever he may be called upon to do, however destruc- 

 tive to himself — when he has respect to the recompence of 

 reward, and remembers that the eye of the all-seeing God, 

 for ever sleepless and undimmed, is upon him by night 

 and day, then is he truly steadfast and not afraid, then 

 shall not his youth be joyless, nor his manhood useless, 

 but even his old age, so often desolate, ' snail be clearer 

 than the noon-day' I shall not say that I lived without 

 God in the world, but I often felt God-forsaken, which I 

 surely would not have done had I simply laid myself and 

 all my sins and sorrows at the foot of the Cross, trusting 

 to ' the blood of sprinkling, which speaketh better things 

 than that of Abel.' I thought, in truth, far more of my 

 sufferings than of my sins, and looked not, at least con- 

 fidingly, 'on Him whom I had pierced.' Had I acknow- 

 ledged the Lord in all my ways, He would have directed 

 my paths, and made my darkness light. God, may I 

 now say, ' The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom 

 shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of 

 whom shall I be afraid ? ' May that faithful saying be 

 accepted and deeply engraven on my heart, 'that Jesus 

 Christ came into the world to save sinners/ to ' blot out 



