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produced, lighted my dormant philosophy and reason 

 and instead of exploding one of my mental torpille 

 (torpedo), it instantly made me calm as a tomb and 

 waiting for sensations. I had not to wait long, in a 

 few seconds our unceremonious follower of the worthy 

 St. Ignatius was sat on a rocking-chair that was in one 

 corner of our office communicating to a hot-house, and 

 began to puff his not overfragrant tobacco smoke, 

 whose stinking effluvia were going up to over a 

 window in the top of which I had my " Motto 



" Deus Nosque etiam nobis hac otia fecerunt." 



" God and we also have given us this leisure " 

 English of above. 



He sat directly opposite the visual angle where was 

 the name of God ! . . . . and seemingly enjoying seeing 

 the smoke almost obscuring the name of God from 

 reading. When, in a voice and diapason I shall not 

 attempt to describe, not being a musician, I asked 

 him if that motto in Latin and English was correct ? 

 He hardly took his pipe out of his mouth to tell me, 

 he thought it was, and added " you have found that 

 phrase in some books !! .... you hear ! readers if 

 any ! but you cannot hear the roaring of my soul, in 

 that moment, if I had not contained with all my energy, 



my wrath that man would not be alive to-day, and yet 

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