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by egoism, isn't it best to try to undo the 

 door of that cage ? Oh, Julien, if only 

 you would believe." 



" She was distressed, and at the thought 

 of hurting her a devil in me rejoiced. She 

 had called Terry one of the dearest of boys. 

 I seized upon the remark. 



" * No doubt you are in love with Terry, 

 who is blue-eyed and has such nice wavy 

 hair. Well, go and marry him. / shall 

 never ask you to marry me again. Good- 

 bye, Louise.' 



" I walked away, and after a while turned 

 to go back to her. We had been quarrelling, 

 at least I had made my pitiable remarks, 

 just where we are standing now. But 

 when I returned she had gone. An insane 

 conceit made me want to hurt her. I 

 wanted to break her spirit to make her 

 believe in me first : then I would try to 

 alter my views. Already I could see the 

 truth of her remarks. I brooded, and my 

 vitality was sapped. My pride, or conceit, 



L.S. 



