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LETTEE FKOM GIBEALTAE 111 



from my good Father, dated Oct. 16, 1756, & one from 

 sister Eeb. & B"" Harry written about the same time. 

 You will judge how any man must be affected to have 

 so long & painful a suspense broken by so afflicting news. 

 The favourable circumstances which you say attended the 

 departure of so valuable and excellent a parent ought 

 however to afford every serious survivor no small con- 

 solation. Such a calm & unterrified resignation of his 

 soul into the Hands of his merciful Creator must be looked 

 upon as a blessed forerunner of the fullness of joy. 



God forbid I should think of taking amiss the affectionate 

 manner in which you express yourself relating to the per- 

 plext & uncreditable situation of my affairs at my departure 

 from England. It is what has given me inexpressible 

 anxiety & discontent. An imprudent and uncautious pro- 

 cedure at my first stepping into the world embarassed me 

 not a little, & gradually involved me in unthought of dis- 

 tresses, the particulars of which I am sorry to conceal from 

 you & ashamed to declare them. In regard to my expecta- 

 tions from the decease of my Father I cannot but rest in 

 perfect satisfaction at the execution of his Will's being left 

 in so unexceptionable hands. As soon as time will allow 

 I must beg the favour of some farther information of the 

 state of our affairs. For I very sincerely approve of your 

 advice for the speedy discharge of my Debts, especially 

 those for money borrowed. I do not clearly understand yet, 

 how & to what extent the expenses of my education are to 

 be estimated, but would be thankful for some intelligence 

 on this Head. If the whole course of my maintenance & 

 education is to be included, I fear the Ballance of my Acc^ 

 will fall deplorably short, according to the conclusions to be 

 made from your letter. But if it please God that matters 

 turn out tolerably favourable, & you shall find yourself 

 enabled to answer the under-mentioned Demands on my 

 Acc\ it will be an unspeakable relief to my Conscience, 



