CONCLUSION. 347 



of milk, which has the effect of destroying 

 nervous energy." 



'Oct, 22, 1886. 



" I have been obliged to set all aside from 

 extreme feebleness. During the last four 

 weeks, indeed, the weakness and emaciation 

 have become very great, so much so that I 

 almost fancy the bones waste. But what I 

 feel most is the loss of fresh air from inability 

 to go out. The last two days have been dry, 

 so that I have been able to get up and down 

 by the house a little. 



" Still, I should have managed somehow to 

 write to you were it not for the great dislike 

 I feel to this begging business. You must not 

 take offence at this, though you may think me 

 very foolish. I keep putting it off and putting 

 it off, till now I suppose I must do it, or stay 

 the winter indoors in helplessness. To-day I 

 have written to obtain the information neces- 

 sary to fill up the form you sent. 



"In September, 1885, my spine seemed 

 suddenly to snap. It happened in ten 

 minutes quite suddenly. It felt as if one 



