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world afresh" alas I he was just about to 

 end the world " even with good health. 



" With truth I think I may say that there 

 are few, very few, perhaps none, living who 

 have gone through such a series of diseases. 

 There are many dead many who have killed 

 themselves for a tenth part of the pain there 

 are few living. 



" My wearied and exhausted system con- 

 stantly craves rest. My brain is always asking 

 for rest. I never sleep. I have not slept 

 now for five years properly, always waking, 

 with broken bits of sleep, and restlessness, 

 and in the morning I get up more weary 

 than I went to bed. Eest, that is what I 

 need. You thought naturally that it was 

 work I needed ; but I have been at work, 

 and next time I will tell you all of it. It is 

 not work, it is rest for the brain and the 

 nervous system. I have always had a sus- 

 picion that it was the ceaseless work that 

 caused me to go wrong at first. 



" It has taken me a long time to write this 

 letter ; it will take you but a few minutes to 

 read it. Had you not sent me to the sea in 



