CASE HISTORIES 23 



kisses me on the cheek. It makes her sick when I go home, she 

 worries over me. She isn't good to me. She told me once she 

 wished I was dead. I wouldn't care to live with Mother unless 

 I was married. I wouldn't sleep with my wife if I had one. It 

 would tempt us to do it too often. The body ought to rest. My 

 sister's husband forbid me to come to their house unless he was 

 there, but I never thought of her body. I let her kiss me but I 

 don't believe in it." 



For four years he had had no coitus and since being in the 

 hospital no erections. There were occasional night orgasms but 

 he could recall no accompanying dreams. He had felt no sexual 

 passion, and tried to keep his thoughts off such subjects. 



Fantasies: His first complaint was that people paid too much 

 attention to him. They thought the same things he did. While 

 he was reading he could hear a voice in his right ear saying the 

 words out loud. Probably it was somebody in another room read- 

 ing through his eyes. He couldn't keep any secrets. Other 

 people were reading his mind always, everywhere. This " influ- 

 ence " was always working on him, something like hypnotizing. 

 He was never free from it. He resisted it, but he was forced to 

 give an account of everything he did, where he did it, and when. 

 Nothing could be hidden. He had to commune to some power 

 everything he had done. Something was sucking his mind, it 

 wandered off and he couldn't concentrate. 



" It seems as if I was an old whore. They can see through 

 my eyes. My soul is so weak that it is exposed. A whore's soul 

 is exposed. After taking a walk I think it over three or four 

 times and see it again, not of my own free will but because I am 

 forced to. If I hear anyone giggle or laugh I think it is at me." 



Voices talked to him of taking both the male and female 

 roles in fellatio, pederasty and coitus inter femora and of cutting 

 off his penis. They both urged him to ask other people to commit 

 perversions with him and accused him of having committed them. 

 " When the nurse comes near me the voice tells me to order her 

 to commit fellatio on me. I've heard a voice commanding me 

 to say that three times since I've been talking to you. When 

 you approached me a voice urged me to say, 'Doctor, you look 



