76 CASE HISTORIES 



people had been sniffing his strength away for a long time, but he 

 had hit on a method of self-defense. If he sniffed back again, 

 there was an interchange of strength, the balance of power re- 

 maining as before. After this discovery his conduct became more 

 agreeable, for he could hold his own and consequently had nothing 

 to fear. 



He thought of his mother a good deal and wondered if she 

 could have been raped when as a sixteen-year-old girl she had 

 crossed the sea from Ireland to America. He remembered hold- 

 ing her down during her raving spells, and thought what a bad 

 effect they would have on an embryo. Was it possible that he had 

 been thus injured before birth? 



" When I looked at a man who had a hypnotic eye I felt an 

 erection and orgasm, but I had no idea of letting him go down on 

 me. When he looked at me I said to myself I won't take it (the 

 hypnotism), I won't swallow it (the host or saliva). I resisted, 

 and he swallowed his host instead. When I see men swallow, 

 I know they're afraid of what they see in other men's eyes. I 

 can stare a person in the eye till they swallow their host, or saliva ; 

 that's their weakness. It seems that I force them to." These 

 fantasies disclose very obviously his resistance to fellatio, par- 

 ticularly towards taking the female role. 



He suffered a good deal from headache. In a dream the pain 

 was relieved by a man's committing fellatio on him. " The man 

 said he was drawing it out of my brain. I felt a great relief in 

 my forehead, then it went down my body and out my penis. I 

 woke up and found I had an erection but no orgasm." A number 

 of times he dreamed that both men and women masturbated him 

 and committed fellatio on him. 



A very vivid dream was of a horsehead on the end of a 

 derrick. " The horse snuffed up oats and blew them into a box 

 car for chickens to eat. Then I said to myself, ' Now I see 

 through it all.' I felt an erection and orgasm and woke up 

 blowing my breath out." This dream symbolizes his conscious 

 fantasy that he could sniff up sex power (oats, seed, semen) from 

 others to use in sexual intercourse. Horsehead and derrick 

 represent his own head, penis and libido; box is the female 



