IOO CASE HISTORIES 



He (indicating the analyst) says he likes you, and all he does is 

 write. He won't lend you money or buy an automobile. I'd pay 

 you back. No, just jump overboard." 



This talk was typical of those that followed except that later 

 he spoke much more freely on sex subjects. The pleas for 

 money, home and automobile, however, were never omitted in 

 any interview. This first talk disclosed his main preoccupations. 

 He had a feeling of sin and remorse and felt he ought to be 

 punished for it or even commit suicide, and feared others would 

 punish or kill him. He said that on the trip from France to St. 

 Elizabeths he thought of throwing himself or being thrown under 

 a train or into the sea. Then tearfully he protested his innocence 

 and begged to be allowed to go home and to be given a motorcar 

 to sport around in. His sense of guilt centered about sexual per- 

 versions, deceitfulness and cowardice. The conflict between good 

 and bad impulses was dramatized as the familiar hostility be- 

 tween Catholics and Masons. 



In later interviews he said, " These fellows pick on you. They 

 pick out your tits. I've never seen a woman's genitals in my life. 

 He wants to see a woman bare-naked. I never did see fellatio 

 committed. The world would come to an end. They say it's 

 coming to an end. Get rid of his dirty thoughts. His mother 

 (she was dead) knows everything he does. Jerking off in the 

 street. This kid knows he's a four-flusher, he wants to get 

 washed out. My penis is burning up in my heart. The blood is 

 being sucked out of his heart. (He looks at his face in a mirror 

 and whimpers.) Dirt and filth. His tits, hearts, testes, eyes are 

 picked out. Burn the tits right out of him. Do cunnilingus and 

 allow fellatio. Put it in the paper (apropos of my steady writ- 

 ing). The devil is female and gives dirty thoughts. The voices 

 suck the blood out of you by talking to you. They tell me to 

 commit fellatio. Masturbate your father. They're bleeding me 

 to death. They have no right to. If anybody called him a rat or 

 accused him of mother incest or fellatio, they'd cut his eyes out 

 (symbolic castration). 



"Please don't suck his tits. ("I'm not doing it.") It feels 

 that way. They burn. You ought not to suck his tits. You're 



