CASE HISTORIES IO5 



I imagined his dead face in a box looking at me in his sleep. 

 The household talked about the war till it got on my nerves. The 

 spell lasted two and a half hours. I saw the Lord looking at me. 

 He said I was one of his best sons, one of the best ever put out. 

 Then he pulled me up into the sky. There was a multitude of 

 angels. It was quite pleasant." 



While in the psychosis he dreamed several times that he was 

 a female having intercourse with a male. In one of the dreams 

 his male partner was the sun. Always he could feel the male's 

 semen enter his body. He also had the fantasy that male and 

 female were joined together in his body, making him a combina- 

 tion of the two, and he drew a kind of swastika of four arms 

 and legs united at one point which was his abdomen, and he 

 named the four limbs north, east, south and west. North and 

 east were above and to the right and were of heaven and good; 

 south and west were below and to the left and were of hell and 

 bad. To the right were five circles of stars and to the left one 

 line of stars. This swastika became a nude man standing in a 

 box with the pores of his skin as big as if punched by fingers, 

 though which the devil tried in vain to inject evil into him. 



These fantasies show his bi-sexuality and his craving to take 

 a female sexual role, and also his resistance to it. Representing 

 resistance we see, standing in the female symbol of a box, a man 

 full of vaginas through which the devil (perverse impulses) 

 tries vainly to inject evil (semen). 



As he recovered he dreamed of being in a car crossing a 

 burning bridge. It falls into the water and he cries for help. 

 The Lord looks at him and gets three big locomotives to pull the 

 car out. It then enters tunnels where he becomes master of all 

 the world. He explained that fire stood for great fear. " When 

 you disobey the Lord, you fear he will punish your spirit with 

 fire." This dream seems to picture him falling through sin (fire) 

 back into mother (water) and being rescued by three big loco- 

 motives (male potency) so that he can enter tunnels (vaginas), 

 or in other words he struggles out of his mother fixation and 

 establishes his heterosexual potency. 



After his mother's death he had visions of seeing her stand- 

 ing beside God and smiling happily at him. Once he heard a 



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