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and weakened by such repeated violent at- 

 tacks, required care and attention to restore 

 me to anything like convalescence, and to 

 enable me, both in body and mind, to be- 

 come a member of society at all. Conse- 

 quently, a year passed away before I sought 

 any companions, or followed any business. 



During this time many were the pro- 

 jects thought of, and plans laid out, for my 

 future. The first question mooted was, 

 would I go back to the profession I was 

 so fond of, and in the scientific part of 

 which I had made so much progress ? 

 Alas ! that had all vanished, as well as 

 other acquirements, owing partly to the 

 want of practice, and partly indeed 

 chiefly to the malady, that had so af- 

 fected my brain as to deprive it almost 

 of the power of retention, and to dissi- 

 pate the fruits of early application, and 

 fair natural capabilities. 



To this return I clung with an eager te- 

 nacity, although with groundless hope, till 



