CHAP. X.] DEATH OF POMEROY. 283 



besides all the danger and distance from friends, there was 

 the fever, of which he had already long experience, and 

 which in such times he knew to be as inconvenient to his 

 friends as himself. But it is no use saying this and that. 

 Some men redeem their characters by their deeds, and we 

 praise them. Those that merely show their character by 

 their deeds should be remembered, not praised ; and a com- 

 plete true man will live longest in the memory, and I 

 cannot but think will be less changed in reality, than one 

 who has doubtfully struggled with duplicity in his constitu- 

 tion, and has walked with hesitation, though along a good 

 path. I know that both do deny and renounce themselves 

 in favour of duty and truth, as they come to see them ; and 

 as they come to see how goodness, having the knowledge of 

 evil, has passed through sorrow to the highest state of all, 

 they accept it as a token that they have found their true 

 head and leader, and so, with their eyes on him, they com- 

 plete the process called the knowledge of Good and Evil, 

 which they commenced so early and so ignorantly. 



Now, what the " completion of the process " is I cannot 

 conceive, but I can feel the difference of Good and Evil in 

 some degree, and I can conceive the perception of that 

 difference to grow by contemplating the Good till the con- 

 fusion of the two becomes an impossibility. Then comes the 

 mystery. I have memory and a history, or I am nothing 

 at all. That memory and history contain evil, which I 

 renounce, and must still maintain that I was evil. But it 

 contains the image of absolute good, and the fight for it, and 

 the consciousness that all this is right. 



So there the matter lies, a problem certain of solu- 

 tion. . . . 



I am grinding hard at Saturn, and have picked many 

 holes in him, and am fitting him up new and true. I 

 am sure of most of him now, and have got over some 

 stumbling-blocks which kept me niggling at calculations 

 two years. 



I am to have some artisans as weekly 'students this 

 winter. 



