CHAPTER XLI 



FINIS 



Trying my Luck— Friends' " Comforting " 



In finishing with some explanation to the public, and 

 especially my friends— those whom I know and those 

 whom I am not personally on terms of acquaintance 

 with — I should like to refer to several things. 



In the first place it must not be stated that there 

 was no idea of earning money both from the first edition 

 and subsequent issues : that, naturally, is the legitimate 

 object of anyone who has something to tell which 

 he feels may be of interest. Real earnings in war- 

 time too can be looked upon as " money from home." 

 Several times lately I have been asked to give the story 

 of a career full of ups and downs, but just as regularly 

 I have declined to do so, for various reasons, some of 

 which may have appeared rather absurd. I suppose 

 among racing people, especially among jockeys, there 

 should be the discretion of silence. But I have waited 

 so many years in the hope that I should be reinstated. 



The wish has come several times to explain away 

 what has not been quite clear to those who sat in judg- 

 ment on me. In this I do not refer exactly to the 

 English Jockey Club and the ruling bodies in France 

 and America, for there are many thousands who have 

 nothing to do with the control of the turf who have had 

 a great deal to say from time to time as to my alleged 

 weaknesses. These I admit, but some of these weak 

 points have not been those charged against me ; in 

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