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something about yourself, so come. Even if you are not told any- 

 tliing about yourself, nevertheless you will learn something of your- 

 self. Come with your disease, for this medicine will cure it. What- 

 ever you have, come and eat this medicine and you will have true 

 knowledge once and for all. Learn of this medicine yourseK tlu-ough 

 actual experience. 



If you just hear about it you are not likely to try it. If you 

 desire real knowledge about it try it yourself, for then you will learn 

 of things that you had never known before. In no other way will 

 you ever be happy. I know that all sorts of excuses will run through 

 your mind for not partaking of it, but if you wish to learn of some- 

 thing good, try this. Perhaps you will think to yourself that it 

 will be too difficult and this will seem an excuse to you for not trying 

 it. But why should you act thus? If you partake of it, even if 

 you feel some xmcertainty about its accomplishing all the good that 

 has been said of it, I know that you will say to yourself, "Well, 

 this life is good enough." After you have taken it for the first 

 time, it will seem as if they are digging a grave for you, that you 

 are about to die; and you will not want to take it again. "It is 

 bad," you wiU think to yourself. You will believe that you are 

 going to die and you wiU want to know what is going to happen to 

 you. The coffin will be set before you and then you will see your 

 body. If you wish to inquire further about where you are going 

 then you will learn something you have not knowTi. Two roads 

 there are, one leading to a hole in the earth and the other extending 

 up above. You will learn something that you had not known 

 before. Of the two roads, one is dark and the other is light. You 

 must choose one of these while you are alive and so must you decide 

 whether you wish to continue in your evil ways or whether you will 

 abandon them. These are the two roads. The Peyote people see 

 them. They claim that only if you weep and repent will you be 

 able to obtain knowledge. Do not, as I said before, listen to others 

 talking about it, but try the medicine yourself. That is the only 

 way to find out. No other medicine can accompUsh what this has 

 done. If, therefore, you make use of it, you will live. After they 

 have eaten peyote people throw aside all the (evU) ceremonies that 

 they were accustomed to perform before. Only by eating the peyote 

 will you learn what is truly holy. That is what I am trying to 

 learn myself. 



It is now 23 years since I first ate peyote, aud I am still doing it 

 (1912). Before that my heart was filled with murderous thoughts. 

 I wanted to kill my brother and my sister. It seemed to me that 

 my heart would not feel good until I killed one of them. All my 

 thoughts were fixed on the warpath. This is all I thought of. Now 

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