254 DAVID LIVINGSTONE. [chap. xn. 



am I from that hearty devotion to God I read of in others ! The Lord 

 have mercy on me a sinner !" 



" March 5th. — A woman left Tette yesterday with a cargo of slaves 

 (20 men and 40 women) in irons to sell to St. Cruz [a trader], for ex- 

 portation at Bourbon. Francisco at Shupanga is the great receiver for 

 Cruz. This is carnival, and it is observed chiefly as a drinking feast." 



"March 6th. — Teaching Makololo Lord's Prayer and Creed. Prayers 

 as usual at 9 \ A.M. When employed in active travel, my mind 

 becomes inactive, and the heart cold and dead, but after remaining 

 some time quiet, the heart revives and I become more spiritually- 

 minded. This is a mercy which T have experienced before, and when 

 I see a matter to be duty I go on regardless of my feelings. I do 

 trust that the Lord is with me, though the mind is engaged in other 

 matters than the spiritual. I want my whole life to be out and out 

 for the Divine glory, and my earnest prayer is that God may accept 

 what His own Spirit must have implanted — the desire to glorify Him. 

 I have been more than usually drawn out in earnest prayer of late — 

 for the Expedition — for my family — the fear lest 's misrepre- 

 sentation may injure the cause of Christ — the hope that I may be 

 permitted to open this dark land to the blessed gospel. I have cast 

 all before my God. Good Lord, have mercy upon me. Leave me 

 not, nor forsake me. He has guided well in time past. I commit my 

 way to Him for the future. All I have received has come from Him. 

 Will He be pleased in mercy to use me for His glory 1 I have prayed 

 for this, and Jesus himself said, ' Ask, and ye shall receive,' and a host 

 of statements to the same effect. There is a great deal of trifling 

 frivolousness in not trusting in God. Not trusting in Him who is 

 truth itself, faithfulness, the same yesterday, to-day, and for ever ! 

 It is presumption not to trust in Him implicitly, and yet this heart is 

 sometimes fearfully guilty of distrust. I am ashamed to think of it. 

 Ay ; but He must put the trusting, loving, childlike spirit in by His 

 grace. Lord, I am Thine, truly I am Thine — take me — do what 

 seemeth good in Thy sight with me, and give me complete resignation 

 to Thy will in all things." 



Two months later (May 1859), a second ascent of 

 the Shird was performed, and friendly relations were 

 established with a clever chief named Chibisa, " a jolly 

 person, who laughs easily — which is always a good sign." 

 Chibisa believed firmly in two things — the divine right 

 of kings, and the impossibility that Chibisa should ever 

 be in the wrong. He told them that his father had 

 imparted an influence to him, which had come in by his 

 head, whereby every person that heard him speak re- 



