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and I humbly hope that I have committed my 

 soul to him, to be washed from the defilement of 

 sin in his blood, to be accepted of God through his 

 intercession, and to be sanctified by his Spirit. 

 The change in my views and feelings, is certainly 

 great ; and it is surprising to myself. What I 

 once considered as the foibles and follies of my 

 youth, now appear to be grievous sins, against a 

 righteous and a long suffering God ; and a religious 

 course of life, I regard as the path, not only of 

 wisdom, but of happiness ; and by the aid of Di- 

 vine grace, it is my resolution, for the time to 

 come, to labour after a compliance with every Di- 

 vine requirement. 



Until this day, I have always doubted whether 

 such a Saviour as the scriptures describe, ever re- 

 ally existed, and appeared on earth ! So blind was 

 I, that I could see no necessity for an atoning Me- 

 diator between God and men. Before I left the 

 civilized part of the world, I had frequently heard 

 the cavils of infidelity urged; and these cavils fol- 

 lowed me into the wilderness, frequently came 

 fresh to my recollection, and contributed to over- 

 shadow my mind with the gloomy doubts of infi- 

 delity. My intention, however, was, by no means 

 to cast off all religion ; but, I attempted to frame 

 to myself a religion, which would comport with 

 my feelings, and with my manner of life. — For 

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