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gave me perfect peace was the assurance that God was acting in 
perfect wisdom. 
Since arriving here I have gradually come round, though I am 
still weak. My first attack of Zambesi fever is thus over. 
Mr. Blockley has been very kind indeed ; he could not 
have been more so, cooking for me himself He gave me a 
vapour bath and wet-sheet packs, which brought me round. This 
treatment is much more effective here than at home. 
Of course, I am not yet sure of reaching the Barotse Valley ; 
the delay caused by this illness may have altered matters. I 
may be too late for the king's boats, or may find that the carriers 
who went on with my goods have robbed me of half, in which 
case I could hardly go on, as my supply is very limited. But 
all will be for the best. God forbid that I should have a say 
in the matter. One thing is clear to me in the meantime, 
that I shall have difficulty in getting across to the Batoka on 
the hills. 
October Zth, 1882. — Since writing last I have had a relapse, as 
my writing shows. I should like to write you much of all I think, 
but it is very hard work. 
I have not had an unhappy time whilst lying here. You may 
think I was in a very miserable plight, lying out in the open plain, 
with no water, and so sick ; but I was perhaps more content then 
than I have been since. I have lately been thinking that most of 
our unhappiness arises from doubting the wisdom of God. It 
does seem a terrible thing to doubt His wisdom in guiding, 
ordering, and arranging all things. 
I am now preparing to start again from Panda-ma-tenka, as 
there is no food to be got ; and also, a few days later, I could 
not get a waggon to go to Leshuma. All things say, "Go;" in 
fact, I must go. 
14M. — I have lain here very weak for four weeks. This is 
now the fifth week, and by Monday I expect to start again. It 
will seem to you too hurried, but I am compelled to move. Here 
Mr. Blockley will have to turn away nearly all his servants for 
want of food. The strength that has come to my arm to write 
has greatly encouraged me to trust that daily strength will be 
given for the journey; for up to three days ago my arm was 
helplessly weak. I shall go with a waggon close to the river. 
