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ment d'amour-propre fatlsfait que je ne chcrche pas toujours 
*' aflez a cacher." — " I am at a lofs to account for the contend- 
" ing fentiments which have grievoufly oppreffed me, and pre- 
" vented me from yielding myfelf entirely to the feelings of 
" gratitude, and to that pleaGng ftate of mind which ever at- 
*' tends them. I love the Englifli more, perhaps, than any 
" Frenchman does ; I have always been extremely well treated 
*' by them ; I have friends among them ; I acknowledge they 
*' poflefs many great qualities as well as talents. I abhor the 
" infamous crimes which have ftained the French revolution, 
*' which have torn from me the deareft objeds of my affedions 
" and efteem ; I am banifhed from France ; my property is 
" confifcated ; I am treated by my own government as if I 
" were a criminal or a bad citizen • feparated from every thing 
" I hold dear, Roberfpierre and the other brigands, to whofe 
" tyranny my country has fubmitted, have rendered me ex- 
*' tremely miferable, and my mifery is far from being at an 
" end : but yet, this feeling for one's country, a feeling at 
" prefent fo painful, fo much at variance with my condition, 
" ftill triumphs over all others, and purfues me here more 
" powerfully than ever. This Englifh flag under which I fail, 
" upon lakes where the French flag has fo long been flying ; 
" thefe forts, thefe cannon taken from us, this proof, perpe- 
" tually under my eyes, of our former weaknefs and ill fuccefs, 
" difturb, overwhelm, and fill me with a confufion and fhame, 
" which I can neither well difliinguifli nor define. The fuccefl'es 
" of Lord Howe laft year, of which the Englifli talk with 
" the greater freedom before us, as they confider our caufe at- 
" tached to theirs j that avidity to announce frcfli defeats of 
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