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DOWN WITH FEVER. 
and Lopez was instructed to take me across the 
strait, out of the fray, should the attack have 
been made before the steamer came. Of course 
I should have refused to go, — anxiety for the 
others would have been unbearable ; but in 
realising what a narrow escape we have had, I 
could not sleep at all the first night after sailing. 
All our experience passed before my mind, and 
a sickening terror, which happily never disturbed 
me while in the scene of danger, excited me 
painfully. 
But let me continue the account of our life 
there. 
We were settled in our own dwelling before 
fever came upon us. I was last to succumb, 
though I had been suffering from headache and 
great lassitude for some time; but I had far 
worse attacks than any one when fever devel- 
oped. I cannot bear to look at my journal — 
the disheartening record of almost continuous 
attacks depresses me. For three weeks I had an 
attack with delirium every day, and was greatly 
weakened. A month after I say — £< Only begin- 
ning to care to look from the window. It is so 
difficult to pick up strength again. Food which 
one eats with hearty appetite when well, is un- 
palatable in sickness, and a tempting morsel 
