
          And now for an answer to your
 home question "What have I been
 doing these last fifty years?" As this
 world counts doing; little or nothing.
 It did not take me long to discover
 that it was not for me to "make my 
 mark upon the age" and having
 [crossed out: determined] [added: settled] that point to my own
 satisfaction I determined to make
 it on myself. I said "I will rule my
 own spirit" and thus be greater than
 "he that taketh the city." [crossed out: I said] "I will not
 love the world nor seek its honors or possessions
 that so the love of the Father
 may be in me and his peace rest upon 
 me." Looking back across the chilling shadows
 of the evening and the more sunny
 traits of middle and early life I see
 not much to regret in my course of 
 inaction and passiveness as to the things
 of the life that is. What have I gained
 in relation to that to come? My confidence
 in the future has not be strengthened
 nor my hopes made more bright by

        