LETTEES. 67 
the same and only crime of which I have 
been guilty. But I am to be the victim. 
Alas ! my youthful inexperience, and no de- 
pravity of will, is the sole cause to which 
I can attribute my misfortunes. But so far 
from repining at my fate, I receive it with a 
dreadful kind of joy, composure, and serenity 
of mind, well assured that it has pleased God 
to point me out as a subject through whom 
some greatly useful, though, at present, un- 
searchable intention of the Divine attributes 
may be carried into execution for the future 
benefit of my country. Then why should 
I repine at being made a sacrifice for the 
good of perhaps thousands of my fellow- 
creatures ? Forbid it, heaven ! Why should 
I be sorry to leave a world in which I have 
met with nothing but misfortunes and all 
their concomitant evils ? 
" I will, on the contrary, endeavour to di- 
vest myself of all wishes for the futile and 
sublunary enjoyments of it, and prepare my 
soul for its reception into the bosom of its Ee- 
deemer. For though the very strong recom- 
mendation I have had to his Majesty's mercy 
by all the members of the court may meet 
