WHERE MONEY IS NO USE 
strength to defend ourselves. In vain we strained our 
eyes all the time in search of wild fruit. In the river 
we saw plenty of fish; we had a fishing-line with us, but 
no bait whatever that we could use. There are, of course, 
no worms underground, where ants are so numerous. We 
could not make snares in the river, as it was much too 
deep. So we sat with covetous eyes, watching the fish 
go by. It was most tantalizing, and made us ten times 
more hungry than ever to be so near food and not be 
able to get it. 
It is curious how hunger works on your brain. I 
am not at all a glutton, and never think of food under 
ordinary circumstances. But while I was starving I 
could see before me from morning till night, in my 
imagination, all kinds of delicacies — caviare, Russian 
soups, macaroni au gratin, all kinds of refreshing ice¬ 
creams, and plum pudding. Curiously enough, some 
days I had a perfect craving for one particular thing, 
and would have given anything I possessed in the world 
to obtain a morsel of it. The next day I did not care for 
that at all, in my imagination, but wanted something else 
very badly. The three things which I mostly craved 
while I was starving were caviare, galantine of chicken, 
and ice-cream — the latter particularly. 
People say that with money you can do anything you 
like in the world. I had at that time on my person some 
£6,000 sterling, of which £4,000 was in actual cash. If 
any body had placed before me a morsel of any food I 
would gladly have given the entire sum to have it. But 
no, indeed; no such luck! How many times during those 
days did I vividly dream of delightful dinner and supper 
parties at the Savoy, the Carlton, or the Ritz, in London, 
Paris, and New York! How many times did I think of 
the delicious meals I had had when a boy in the home of 
my dear father and mother! I could reconstruct in my 
imagination all those meals, and thought what an idiot 
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